Update

Gotta love it when school goes onto collapse timetable! I now have until Friday morning off, except two revision classes, one tonight and on on thursday that i may or may not attend, depending on what i'm up... and if i've gone back to bed.... OK, so i wont have gone back to bed, but there is the whole "being bothered to got into school thing for 45 minutes" to think about.

Anyhoo, I've gotta stay in the house today anyway, cos there's meant to be a surveyer coming round at some point so mum can gett he mortgage. *jumps as cat jumps onto lap* Ohhhh... 9 days until dad moves. And as i have that afternoon off, i get to go and help unpack etc. And my uncle is coming up, which is great cos i aint seen him since April when he got married. So mucho yayness there.

What else... Oh. Went to the cinema with Ryu, Duck and Ha chan. Saw "the Incredibles", and it was a huge laugh. People now know what i'm like on skittles,a nd yet i am still apparently getting a huge bag of them for chistmas. You have all been warned!

*Sings and bounces* Skittles Skittles SkittlesSkittles Skittles Skittles Skittles Skittles Skittles! hee hee!

Feeling better

Well, i am pleased to say that i have managed to get myself out of the big huge mood that has been overshadowing me for the last god knows how long, and now i'm actually looking forward to the whole moving thing. Got a date for my carpet to be fitted, so that's all sorted. So i should be completely settled in for xmas.

Lets see, well, "romantic" life is complicated, but hey, what else is new? But on the good side, at least i now know that JJ is completely over me, and now likes the person who likes the same guy i do... did i mention its complicated?

School is going ok. I've completely finished 2 pieces of coursework, and that's all handed in, so i only have one piece left. Revision for the mountain of exams i'm taking is going ok, and i feel like i may actually be able to pass them, so that's a good thing.

Ermm... oh, finally got my cosplay stuff sorted. So that should be good. Also finally started my xmas shopping... and mangaed to go completely broke in about 90 mins, so i only have enough money left to go to the cinema with Ryu tonight... until next week... when my allowence comes through. So i should have everybody's things sorted by the time the partys come around.

Heh, i better go and start wrapping them up.

Oh yeah... can people please comment on this thing, cos i feel like i'm the only one who reads it.

Stupid school...

I mean, you turn up, you go to lessons, you try to get your head around really complex stuff, and all for what?! Ok, yes, getting a job at the end of it, going to uni etc... but at the end of the day, life is just a package tour, and we're just the packages.

late update

Ok, i was going to write this earlier, as in yesterday... actually it's gone midnight, so techniqually 2 days ago, after writing to Baka, but then i found some unfinsished biology homwork, so i'm afraid that that took priority. Then when i tried to update before the computer decided that it wnted to mess me about and crash, so this is hte first oppotunity i've had when the computer decides it is going to keep up with what i'm typing!

Lets see, well today, ok, yesterday, i wasn't feeling too good, but now i'm alot better, thank god. man i hate those stupid 24 hour bug things. Really, what is the point of them?! Stupid things.

Went round to Walnut's on Saturday, and we marathoned Witch Hunter Robin from episode 6 to the end... so that means that i have seen a whole anime series that Baka-san hasn't. Wow. *feels all empowered* Ok, im back. Actually i'm going to leave this here.

I should have a longer update tomorrow. I hope.

updatingness

Last night went to the theater with my dad to see King Lear, which was really cool. Out of all the types of plays, i prefer the tragedies... dunno why, but i do. m'eh.
(*jumps as cat moves* Damn thing just gave me a frigging heart attack! Ok, im ok.) Where was i...? Oh yeah...

Parents and siblings have gone out Christmas shopping, so i have the house to myself for a bit, thank god! They're all driving me insane... OK, so that's not exactly new, but hey, it's nice to have some peace and quiet for once. Oh, thought... must start my own shopping... new thought... must get some money to do shopping...

Going round to Walnut's tonight for some anime theapy, and maybe to rant. But i dunno. At the moment i seem to be doing OK, so it'll depend just how annoyed i get this afternoon when the family gets home. But hey, it's something to look forward to.

Small rant

Ok, i warn you know, this is going to be a rather ranty post.
Isn't it funny how people always seem to think that they know better than you, or understand how you're feeling, even when you don't have a clue yourself? I was told by "friends" today who i should and should not speak to and see. So i am not too impressed with them at the moment. OK, yes, i know they're there to look out for me,a nd they don't to see me get hurt and everything, but at the same time isn't it all part of growing up? Being hurt and making mistakes gives experiences to learn from. I would like to be given that oppotunity every once in a while.
ok, i may be being melodramatic, and acting like a brat, but right now it feels like people are trying to take over me, and im beginning to feel a little smothered.

random ramble

Well, it turns out that it's going to take a couple more weeks until dad can get his house, because the idiots at Northen Rck have LOST the deeds of transfer. I mean, all they had to do was look at it, sign it, and send it to a solicitors or something, and they can't even manage to do that!!

Wrote a letter to Baka yesterday, so that should reach her either tomorrow or monday. i had my first night off in about 2 months yeterday. Got to love it when you fool the maths teacher into giving you an extra 2 days to do homework everyone has already done. Idiot. He's the teacher, you'd think he would rememeber when he set the homework for... not that i'm complaining midnd you...

Today is going to be fun. I've got biology, which i think i'm having a test in, but i could be wrong... psychology independent, which means i get to find out how animals are used in experiments and stuff... some of these guys were really mean to them! then i have double maths. And it's not like i can go home like i normally do after it, cos i've got bio revision after school for an hour... i sure hope i'm not mean tto be cookin tea, cos if i am, then people are going to be hungry!

Also meant to be having an intervention by Laura, Larna and Claire about certain parts of my life. No offence to them, i mean i know they're only looking out for me and everything, but at the end of the day, it's my life, can people please let me live it?

Yesterday

Well, last night was a bundle of laughs! I had my parent- teacher interviewy thing, on how can we help your child blah blah blah, target settings, blah blah blah, and generally how is child getting on in class, blah blah blah. So apparently I'm going to get a grade in psych if i put the work in, (which is kinda a given hm?) I can't actually fail maths, and apparently should get an A/B (so no pressure there then!) and I am going to have to really really work hard in biology on applying my knowledge to situations, which apparently i cant do very well, so that's something else to work on.

i had a good winge at my parents about the whole moving thing and living arrangements etc. It feels so good to know that they know how i feel about the whole "happy family" situation that we have at home at the moment, and how it's completely fake, and it just makes the whole adjustment thing harder. So now that i've winged to them, i should be a bit happier to certin friends who have had to put up with a heck of a lot of shit from me, that in all fairness they can't do anything about.

Then, after all that, i went with my mum to a lecture on forensic ontology.. basically bite barks etc. Which was actually kinda fun... i know, i know, how can that be fun?! but it was.
So yeah, that was what i did yesterday.

Updateness

At the request of One Baka-San...

Right, well, this weekend was a bundle of fun. Spent basically all of it finaly finally finishing my Psych, which means that i should never have to do anything on it again, so that's one "exam" in January that i've passed... OK, aced... but who's counting?

Went to the cinema with Ryu, Kel, Mandy, Dash and Matt for mandy's 19th, and ended up seeing Shark Tale, which i have to admit i was iffy if i wanted to see it, but it turned out to be a good laugh. Also gave Dash the "horrifying" news that i have come up with the analogy that he is the male version of me... Be afraid, be very afraid, they come in guy versions too! MWAHAHAHAHA!!!

Went round to ryu's last night for a bit to watch Witch Hunter Robin." It's kinda cool, but having only seen the first 4 episodes, the plot is still hard to spot, as there is still a lot of character development happening.

Hmmm, i wonder how badly i screwed up that test that we had in biolog last week. Guess i'll find out in about 30 mins. Wonder if anyone in the class will realise that I'm in a skirt... probably not. I mean, so far today 1 person has noticed. And if i was to wear skirts everyday, then it probably woulndn't matter so much, but this is the first time EVER that i have worn a skirt to school... but meh.

Ah well, off to the world of work i go. The joys.

Personal Statement

Personal statements are fickle things. they drive you carzy and then they drive you mad, and all you get to do is to sit there and let them. Why is that? I must be on my 6th draft already, and everytime i go to write some more, i re-read what i have already said, and realsie that it is a load of old tosh! Oh, i like that word. Tosh.

I was told yesterday that i would make a very cute penguin. I'm not entirely sure how to take that. But i was told it be a friend, so i suppose it should be a good thing... at least i hope so... hmmm.

Oh, Sparkie's coming back this weekend. I wonder if i'll get the time to be able to meet up with her, as i didn't last weekend when Baka came home. Ah well, if i don't i'll catch both when they come back for christmas. Only *counts on fingers* 36 day till we break up. Yay! can't wait!

Life at home is quite fun at the moment. like it isn't hard enough living under the same roof as parents who are splitting up, but now we don't have any water until about 8:30 tonight. After it went off at 8:30 yesterday morning. 36 hours without water, and they're planning to turn it off again on Saturday. What joys that is. So doing anything that invoves using cold water is almost impossible. Almost, not completely. I mean, the water company were kind enought o supply a trailer down thenext street with cold water, but it's not any good for drinking or anything. It may be ok for use in the tea tonight, but i'm not sure how much i trust it.

right, well, i'm ging to finish this and then send e-mails to Baka and sparkie, see how they're getting on. And then i better get back to writing my personal statement. again. Hey, maybe this time iwont delete half of it before adding to it. You never know.

Packed

Well, i think i now have everyhting packed that i am going to take to dad's, when he moves out. Firt he has to wait for the building society to get a move on so he can have a completion date and know when he's going to gett the keys... or something like that...

Anyway. Been doing nothing but work and packing this weekend, and am now a little tired. And now i've come to school to find that i only have 2 lessons today, as my psychology teacher is in London on some course or other... Which basically means that i get a "free" to do the work in... so that's what I'm up to next.

Well, that's me done. I better go and get on with the psych. Anyone know anything about Vygotsky's theory of cognitive development? Anyone at all?!

UCAS, UCAS, UCAS

That's basically all i've done today. Well, except for lessons. but hey, it means that i wont have to do it over the weekend, so i can spend that time... well, working on homework and coursework. Hmmm.

We're designing a web page in psychology on using animals for psychology research. And it's actually pretty cool. Except i have no clue as to what i'm doing! The last time i designed a website, i was in year 9, and i did it on publisher, not Frontpage, or whatever the programme is. Its hard! But hey, thank god the people i sit with do ICT! They don't know it, but they are going to be helping me a lot over the next few weeks!

*And now my internet connection has decided to crash on me, so i'll just wait until it reconnects. Ah, thats better. Stupid bloody thing... Cant wait till i get braodband at dad's! Hmmm, wonder if mum would consider getting it too...*

I get to walk "with" my sister home after her dance class tonight. That should be fun. I'll freeze! Why did i offer? Why?
*Winces as door slams* Oh great, sounds like she's in a good mood(!) *Shudders*

Ah well, better go and sort out what courses i'm applying to.

Question

Have you ever had one of those days when you wake up and realise just how little and trivial things seems to be? I'm having one of those days. In comparison to quite a lot of my friends lives, mine is easy and non-important. And I'm sorry to them that it has taken me so long to realise that. And I'll try to stop being so, well, me-ish, but i can't promise anything on that.
Anyway, new month, new start etc.

Started Chemistry revision for my re-sit this week. And i was pretty pleased with myself, as i remembered how to do stuff that people still taking it had forgotten. Yay me. Something that i was taught last year somehow managed to stay in my head.

Also got my psychology coursework back. If we handed it in with the assessment criteria, we would know where we were mark wise, apparently. Unless you're me, in which case guess! So i re-did what the comments said i should re-do, and it turns out that if i re-do my references and footnote some stuff, i should get an A for it. So that'll be good, as it'll mean that i should be able to get a good grade at the end of the year, if i put the work in of course.

Had yet another "talk" today about UCAS and Key Skills, and that we should be getting our portfolios up to level 3 etc. But if i do that, and they think that i can pass a really hard exam, they'll put me in for it in January. But i don't want to do it. I don't need it, as none of the uni's I'm applying to accept it. All it'll be is another exam for me to do. And I'm already doing 6 exams in January. Well, 5 written, 1 coursework. It just isn't going to happen. I don't care what the teachers say. I am not going to do it!

Ah well, i suppose i better be off and finish my biology and maths coursework. And try to get some meaning back into my life. So I'm sorry that I'm all depressed and stuff. i will try to work on that.