Manchester and general update

Well, went to Manchester for my interview yesterday. And... I got an offer!! wOOt!!!

Had a tour of the place, and i actually like it better than Aston, becasue although i like Aston for the small close knit feel it has, i think that Manchester had the better facitlities. So all i have to do is get BBC and i'm off to Manchester.

Let's see, what have i been up to since the last time i posted... um... Oh yeah, had Easter. Went round to my mum's for breakfast on the Sunday, which meant that not only did i have to get up on a Sunday morning, never an easy task, i had to get up early on a sunday morning having already lost an hour due to Daylight saving time. Played a few games with the family, which was nice, then all had tea together, before getting back to dads for about 9. The poor cat must have thought we had abandoned it.

Monday went round to mums again, then me and parents went for a walk, in the rain, because we do that sort of thing. Made decision as to what we are doing over the summer holiday wise... 3 weeks in the West States... wOOt!!! Judi was slightly less enthused, as a large part will be travelling around in a car... and suffice to say judi + car + 3 weeks = slightly annoyed/bored judi + slightly anooyed parents. But it should be OK. Played some more games, got whopped at Risk by Judi, then had a chinease, before returning to dads to the cat that must have thought that we had really abandoned it this time.

Tuesday got up and went to mums... are you sensing a pattern here?... because she had arranged for her electric meter to be replaced or something like that. Anyway, went over, did about 30 mins of work... woo hoo... before getting whopped at Risk by Jusi... sensing a pattern here too... Came back at a reasonable time to the cat, just to prove that people still actually live in this house.

Wednesday got up EARLY before heading down to Manchester. had a talk about the course, had lunch, had an interview, got an offer, went on a tour, had an interesting virtual tour of accomadation in which we were all told about a halls of residence, and then why it was a really bad idea/ good idea to go there. Met up with dad who had done some shopping, and came home.

Today, had a "lie in", well compared to the rest of this week its a lie in, before coming to tell you glorious people what i've been doing. Got to actually go do some work now.

My decision

I have decided to fully rectify my guy problems by becomming a nun. It will solve a hell of a lot of problems! (That whole believing in God thing... it's justa technicallity, right?) I mean, not that it's bad enought that JJ has decided that he's in love with me, Kris has decided that would ask me out! How many times does a girl have to say "I don't want to go out with you" before they get the message?! It's getting up to a hell of a lot! GRRR!!! (Am slightly annoyed, if you couldn't tell!)

Last day of the term today. I have my report. Apparently, i am a "sensible, determined and mature young lady". Well, it's nice to know that Finders at least thinks i'm worth something. Which is more than what some people out there think of me, or so i hear. Yet more rumours concerning Yours truely... you would think that people would have gotten bored by now, but no.

Ah well, better get on with some work i suppose. I should have a longer update soon. No promises though.

Keep safe kk?

To Aston and back in a day

Went to visit Aston Uni yesterday. It was actually really fun. I mena, the lab session wasn't as good as the one at Newcastle, but at least this time i didn't come out having caught HIV! Anyway, you're not meant to suss these things out by what diseases you catch are you?! I actually like the idea of it being a nice small campus. I mean, Aston only has about 5,000 students in all, half the number of students that are in Newcastle. (Or is it Newcastle and Northumbria combined... cant remember what the guy said... hmmm, never mind.)

After the visit went into Birmingham, all of a 5 minute walk... however will i survive?!... and went to do a bit of birthday shopping for Mark, what with it being his birthday on Wednesday. But of course, what with the whole way the rota has turned out, I'm at mum's with the other 2 being at Dad's so have decide that we're all going to have tea on Tuesday at dad's, and he get's his presents a day early.

Still got that interview at Manchester before i even know if i'm getting an offer from them. Which, for me, sorta sucks, because at the moment i've got an idea as to where i want to go for firm and insurance, but Manchester could blow the whole thing to pot, or i could be rejected, or i may not even like the Uni... there are lot's of "or"s involved. God, i never knew this stage of the decision would be so complicated... why didnt anyone tell me that this part was so complicated?!!

What else?... erm...actually, can't think of anything else to say at the mo, so i'll sign off here.

Keep safe kk?

sisters, exams, and hypocrites

OK. I take it back. Everything i said before about missing Judi, and it getting to me, i take it back. God, why does she have to be so infuriating. And not just to me. She was answering back to both parents at tea. It's a very rare occasion, getting all 5 of us in the same house for a period of time long enough to have a meal, and all she seems to be able to do is to lash out. And I'm fed up of it. I don't see what gives her the right to set out and attempt to ruin something that the rest of us are trying to enjoy. It really irritates me!

Got my exam results back yesterday... of a sort anyway. Managed to royally mess up my Chemistry resit, *coughcough*U*coughcough*, but hey, it was a resit, so my nice D will just have to stay. And i also managed to have a very slight off day with my maths exam too. Just in case you all thought i was a genius, think again... i only managed to get a D... and because it's me it was only 1 off a C. Hmmm, that must be my theme tune. As for my biology, well, the new module that i thought was really really really bad turned out to be a C, a low C, but still a C, which is much better than i thought it would be. As for the modules i resat in biology, i managed to improve them from their D status. Got a B and a C, so me is very happy about that.

The whole year groups' psychology coursework is going in for remarking. When we did it in class, Morton had us all down as A-C grades. The marks come back, suddenly we're all C-U grades. Everyone dropped at least a grade. She was not really sure why though. So got to wait for a few weeks to hear about that. Ah well, can't have everything can you?

Sure is going to be fun telling dad though. I mean, what with his comment of "are you doing the right subject?" i can now say yes, because a) its what i WANT to do, not what he wants me to do, and b) I've just gone and proven to him that although Biology can be a bit more challenging, i can actually do the subject, thank you very much! Found out from my mum when i told her what he had said that he was a hypocrite! I mean, he'd gone through the school system wanting to do engineering, following his brother. He got to uni, decided that he couldn't do engineering because his brother had done it first, and went to do physics instead. He gave up doing something he wanted to do for something that he could do, and then says he thinks I'm making a mistake. I seriously don't know where he's coming from recently.

Well, now that I've had my little rant, i shall leave you all in peace, if you're still reading this anyway. Feedback would be liked if possible... why is it only my very angsty posts get comments off lots of people... hmmm... never mind.

Keep safe kk?

To Quote a quote...

“In the immortal words of the doors, "the time to hesitate is through."”

Ok, I apologise that this update had taken so long to write, but hey, what can I say, I’ve been busy. But the odd thing is, if someone was to ask me “Busy doing what?” I wouldn’t have an answer. At least not a definite one. And ok, to some people me not having a straight answer isn’t anything new, but I find it strange that I cant put my finger on what has kept me so busy lately. I mean, yes, I’ve been doing schoolwork, but hey, newsflash, so does everyone else… well most people at any rate, who attend school or uni. And then those who don’t can name what they do, be it work, socialising, whatever.

Been having trouble sleeping recently. I’m beginning to wake up in the morning more tire than when I went to bed. Hopefully it will pass. I think it’s beginning to finally show. Especially to friends who see me the most. M’eh, I dunno. I guess I'm just feeling a little lost. I’m hopefully going to uni in just a few short months, and its slightly freaking me out a little. Ok, yes, most people who read this have already been there, done that, in some cases got the tee shirt or whatever they were handing out. But the prospect of me moving away from those that I love, and what I’ve become accustomed to for the last, what… 12 years or so? Must be… is a thought that scares me. But, as the Doors say, “the time to hesitate is through.”

Ever have those times where you just wish that the big person upstairs would stop messing you around, make something in your life go right, and that, even if it’s just for one day, your life made sense? And you were free to do what you wanted, without consequences? If you could do anything, knowing that everything would return to “normal” the next day, what would you do? …if there’s such a thing in the world as “normal” now… I really don’t know anymore. M’eh.

Found out the other day that I am apparently very hard to get over. And hey, it’s always nice to be appreciated, and wanted and everything… it’s just a little bit unnerving when the person who says that they think they’re falling in love with you is JJ. Hey, don’t get me wrong, he’s a good mate and everything,, and he knows that I don’t like him in that way, but still… why me?!! Why does everything in this world seem to crash on my shoulders? Ok, I know that’s not true, and that everyone has something in their life that they need to adjust to, and find hard to deal with, but lately it seems that I have a big arrow pointing over my head saying “Glutton for punishment” with everyone having a bet on how long I’m going to last. Well, ok, I give up. You all win. Take your winnings and just leave me alone!

It’s sort of bizarre. Judy has gotten her way, again, and is now on a different rotation than what she was. Now, instead of her and mark doing the same 2 week rotation, she has 3 weeks at dad’s and 1 week at mums. Meaning that now I’m only with her for 1 week out of a month, mark with 2. and I’m by myself for two. It just seems strange. I mean, yes Judith and me fight from time to time, but at the end of the day she is my sister, and I dunno, not having her around so much is, well wired. And it’s not like I can talk o her at school… that is a big no-no. sibling contact t school equals bad mistake. Very bad mistake. I guess I was just getting used to the routine of moving between houses, spending half my time with siblings and the other times just me, and although that’s nice, it feels more like a family when we’re all at the same house. Y’know? I never thought I’d miss my sister this much. Hmmm.

Well, now that I have managed to get myself thoroughly depressed, I think I’ll go and do some psychopathology homework… clinical characteristics if depression… hmm… me. Still. Maybe if I can get a good nights' sleep soon I’ll be able to feel better… maybe.