quick update

Tom and Jerry should have won. It's way better than Simpsons.
Magic roundabout is such a cool film! (Ok, so i'm a abig kid really. so what?!)
I'll have a longer update soon hopefully.

changes

Just finished reading one of the best angsty dark animes i have ever read, the bit i have anyway. Tis really really cool! Congrats to Hiya, Ryu and Kamo.

Been trying to sort out a limo for the prom... that we can afford! Dnt suppose anyone out there knows of a local limo company? If as many people as i think are going are going, we're goning to need 2 for the whole group. Ah well, the search shall go on.

It's half term! wOOt! 12 whole days, well, more liike 11 now, where i dont have to go to school. But i still have to work... there's only 9 teaching weeks left before we go on study leave.... that's a very very scary thought! *eek* So yeah, i'm a little stressed, little freaked, but hey, i'll get over it.

(hits "o" key... heh, it does work... m'eh. never mind then.)

Going to rant a little here in response to baka's question on changing. I think i have. I mean, a year ago, i was really shy, as hard as it is to believe that, i was. but now i'm not as shy as i was. And i'm more able to deal with life changing event than i was a year ago. Heck, i've had to be, what with parents splitting up, dad moving out, and living wwith both parents. Not to mention other things that i thought wwould never happen but they have, and OK, some of them may not be life changing, but they're still fairly new to me. So yeah, i figure i've changed in that way. And then there's my interests. i mean, last year i didnt really know what anime was, nw i'm a major fangirl of most of the anime i've seen, and i'm constantly on the lookout for more. And i'm getting to learn some of a new language out of it. ok, so i can't have a huge conversation in japanese, but i do know some words and phrases, more than what i could a year ago, and more than what most people i hag around at school do, which can be very benificial, especially when they're being baka's. They have no idea that i'm insulting them, it can be quite fun actually.

Anyway....
Actually, i cant think of anything else to say, so i'll think i'll leave i here for today.

updating again

Well, i have got yet another offer from another uni. York have offered me ABB at A level, and B at AS chem. Yeah, i'm not going to York! And that isn't me being pessimistic. It's me being realistic. There is no way in hell that i'll be able to get that. So at the moment it's a toss up between Aston and Newcastle, and have yet to hear from the one uni that i know have actually got my application. Ah well.

feeling slightly better now. And no, Kamo, it was not because i was drinking too much caffine, intaking too much sugar and the rest of it. I was just feeling a little down. But at least I've got back to getting about 4-5 hours of sleep a night, which is better than what i've had for the last month or so.

Let's see, what else... um... Oh, got an anime fest thing with Ryu on Saturday, which should be fun, what wiht me still having about 2 hours of stuff that i leant to watch. Still trying to persuade my oh so darling siblings that all anime is NOT pokemon, but it's still a losing battle. M'eh. But at least they're both going to my dads tonight, so i'll finally have some peace this weekend... hopefully anyway!

Ummm, think that's everything for now. Probably update again soon.

Why me?

I guess i'm just feeling a little lost at the moment. Things that should matter to me don't, and things that do matter to me shouldn't. Man i'm so confused! Why does God constantly decide to mess with my head? Why mine? What's wrong with the other 7 billion or so people in the world? Why can't "he" just leave me and everything to do with me alone, so i can work through stuff at my own rate. Course being able to get a full nights sleep would be good too. Would make a nice change. M'eh.

general update

Last night was pretty fun. Went to the cinema with Ryu, Kamo and Hiya. Saw Team America… which was, ummm, bizarre to say the least. I think I’m going to need therapy for a far few years! Got a letter from Baka which I am in the process of replying to, so that should get sent tonight sometime. It’s strange, although I read her blog every chance I get, so I sorta know what’s going on, and the letter exchanges, I still miss her. Ok, so I’m missing a lot of people right now. I mean, I ain't seen a fair number since the beginning of January. Even Ryu and she only lives about 2 minutes away from my mums. Guess school and other stuff has been getting in the way more than I realised.
I have given up trying to understand that ex of mine. If he wants something to happen, he’s going to be disappointed. Guess I’ll have the best chance of finding out what’s going on on that front next Sunday.

Think I’m over that bug thing. It’s strange, people at school were laid up in bed with it for days, but it seemed to only last about 1-24 hours with me. I didn’t even get a day off school with it, unlike Judi, who either had the same thing as me only more severely, or she had a reaction to the tetanus/ polio shot she had. And she didn’t tell me she was getting it, so I couldn’t give her prior warning of the taste of those polio drops… *shudders at memory of taste… Blurgh!* (Ok, so I’m not sure if Blurgh is a word, but wth, it is now!)

Decided to treat myself to an anime fest thing throughout the day. Had about 6 ½ hours worth of things to watch, but now I’ve watched about half of that, so I think I’ll watch some more of that once I’ve finished this.

Maybe going out to a party tonight, but as I didn’t find out about it until yesterday when apparently everyone else who is going has known about it for a few weeks, I don’t know if I want to go. I dunno, I guess I’m just feeling a little ignored, and for some reason it seems like most people out there are trying to avoid me, for reasons I have yet to work out. Ah well, something new to keep me awake thinking at all hours of the night. I don’t care that experts say that writing things down help, that doesn’t seem to work with me. It just brings the thoughts to the surface of my brain, so they’re right there, floating around, bouncing off my skull constantly. I just hope that they stop soon, before I go completely insane!!

What is up with this school?!

OK, first they say "you don't so enough private study", and take away half the non-contact periods that each of us have and say that we have to do private study in them. OK, so I do private study in most of them anyway, but it's nice to have the option of it y'know? So we've been doing this new routine thing for about 6 weeks or so, and now they've decided to reward the people who have been doing the private study by saying "oh wait, you don't have to do as much anymore. You can go back to doing what you were doing before." So yet again we're being used as guinea pigs as far as I can tell. Last year it was for PUS, this year private study. And it makes no sense. The teachers were saying that it wouldn't make a difference, 'cause if you weren't working in non contacts, we should be, and if we were working in them it wouldn't make a difference. So what's with the "we've changed our minds" thing? OK, I know I shouldn't complain. I mean, at least I have the opportunity to say when I get to do private study again, but I just wish people would pick a scheme and stick to it!

I have a question. What is it with the many many many reminders that this event is coming up, that event is coming up, the other event is coming up about 2 months before said event? I mean, things like Christmas, Valentines Day etc. happen every year, and most happen on the same day. You would think that people would realise that they are coming up without having big banners etc. reminding them of the events every which way they looked, wouldn't you? The events get so over commercialised that the true meaning of the events goes out the window, and it seems to me like it becomes a popularity contest.

Take Valentines Day. It's turned into a competition of who is the most popular person, who gets the most cards, who gets the most expensive present, who can think of the most extravagant thing to do on the day? What happened to just spending time with the one's you care about, not trying to outdo their efforts, but just being happy to be with them. I just don't see the point of people spending so much money on one person. It shouldn't be a money competition, but that's what it's become. I dunno. I suppose it could just be me. What do you lot think?

Oh My God!

Hmmm, OK, this is slightly unnerving. I can get on Blogger... at SCHOOL!!! Hmmm. Does this mean thayt God has decided to stop picing on me?! Are things about to go right for once? OK, now they're not, i've just jinxed meself. Ah well, the thought was nice while it lasted.

Just had my photo taken... 10 to 9 on a Thursay morning is WAY too early to have a photograph taken! I have a strong suspicion that my eyes are closed, or that there is a strog reflection from my glasses, or SOMETHING, because for me to have a good last photo at school would be impossible.

Hmmm, got maths next. The many many joys of trigonometry. I tell ya, poeple who dont do maths don't know how lucky they are not having to do trig ever again. i mean, seriously, who cares that sin(a+b)= sin something or other... can't remmeber off the top of my head. I know, i chose the subject, i kew what i was getting into, but why TRIG?! (So this is why i can get on blogger, it'ds because i'm going to have a rotten day. But then i knew that when i woke up this morning.) Ok, enough with being pessimistic, i dunno, i guess this cold is just bringin me down. I hate feeling ill.

Ah well, suppose i'd better do something creative. hmmm. I know, i'll dig my way out of here. Unless someone knows of an escape tunnel i could borrow. Anyone?

Told ya

I told ya i'd update.
Ok, so i know i ain't had a proper update in a week, but that's not entirely my fault. It's just been hard for me to get online.

Had an interesting conversation with my dad last night. I got 2 offers from Aston uni at the weekend, yayness, someone wants me! But why should my parents see it as that, when they can see it as a way of once again say "This means you're going to have to work extra hard now". Like i've been sitting doing sweet FA for the last 17 years! Anyway, i was feeling about 2 inches tall last night. Dad seemed to think that he's taking my exams more seriously than i am, and that i've waited too long to do the work. And he's come up with this becasue of what HE did. Why can't people realise that i am NOT my parents, i am NOT the same as them, jut a generation younger, and that i can live my own life?! Is that too much to ask?
(...goes and wrestles the dead bird that cat dragged in from him. He aint a happy kitty now...)

Went to Tomo-chan's 18th birthday party on Saturday. That was good fun. It's actually quite amazing to see just how little alcohol is needed for someone to get drunk. OK, i know the last party i went to i get drunk, but yet again people were managing to get drunk to 3 alcopops.

I still have no idea what that ex boyfriend of mine is doing or wants to do. But he keeps doing the flirting thing. Anybody got ANY ideas? No matter how radical they seem.

Well, that's it. Suppose i'd better get ready for school. Oh yeah, that letter IS being written Baka, i promise! It should get posted within the next few days... once i've finished it...